The Word B

i keep another journal. this is my latest "hi-tech" hobby. my other journal is the old fashion kind of pen and paper. recently, i bought a new book to write in, as my current one was nearing its end. for years i have used a journal that is approximately 8 1/2 inches by 5 inches, or A5 in size. for these journals, i have had a nice leather cover that easily is slipped off when i complete one journal and move onto the next. however, this time around, i felt i needed a change in size. perhaps it would also stimulate a change in attitude for me as well (i hope), in regards to writing style and projects, and well as large enough to draw pictures and create more abstract things. basically, i wanted more space and a larger canvas.
two nights ago i finished the last page of the old style journal and started on the new. in truth, i only wrote a few words, just to break it in. after i wrote those words, i looked at it, and realized i have put a very large project before myself. i know i am up for the challenge. that is not the problem, i now have. what i am confronted with is the fact that i am so used to the other sized book, that this new one seems so foriegn and unfamiliar to me that i am put off from writing in it. i look for other distractions. it is silly i know, but the larger blank page that stares me back in the face is daunting. i will over come. you wait and see, this time next week, i will be so deep into it, this entry into this journal will seem silly. it already is, a little.