Friday, March 11, 2005
super swimmers
well cancer couldn't stop it. neither could the chemotherapy or the conventional drugs at the hospital. the removal of my left testicle couldn't prevent it from occurring either. all those days and nights hanging over the toilet bowl puking my guts out while existing in this mental delirium could not stop it. i am healthy! and to prove this point my sperm are swimming strong and with a vengeance. to take it one step further, they are so strong that my wifes' own biological defenses couldn't prevent it either (well, one at least). one special little, talented, slippery, strong, determined, resilient, fast, wiggly, 23 chromosomed, beauty, of a sperm made it through all the above obsitcles, and hit the target. yes, she's pregnant, knocked up, duffed, with a little bun in the oven. this was huge news. bigger than ben hur, or will it be a ben him? who cares?
i have disproven the odds here. i have come back from the dead and succeded in performing my biological function for living- to pass on my genes. forget about the IVF, this one is all natural baby. although we haven't cancelled the bank account yet, it is looking like a good sign that it will be on the way out. so far we are only new in the game, but in the game nonetheless. 6 weeks into it.
how did it all go down? well about 2 weeks ago, cherry was late. we didn't give it much weight due to the fact that i am recently out of the chemo, 18 months. not long when you consider i was near death from repeated poisoning. the doctors couldn't and wouldn't give us a definitive answer about regaining my fertility, so we knew we were fighting the odds. well, to cut out middle bit, here we are. just call me daddy.
truly, it has all come as a huge shock, and totally unexpected. it is not the best time for this sort of news with house and mortgage and me returning to university. but then again, does this sort of thing ever come at an appropriate time? i have learned a few lessons from cancer and living through the chemotherapy, life is way too prescious. so we are taking this little bit of news and running. so what of the obstacles in the future whether they be financial, time, energy, or anything. we are going for it with a sense of pride and determination.
still there are the health factors to consider of mother and child and going the full term, etc. but so far so good. we have overcome so many hurdles thus far. it also means plain and simple, cherry is healthy, and i am healthy. this is my testament to life and a big fuck you to cancer. you didn't win. i won.
i have disproven the odds here. i have come back from the dead and succeded in performing my biological function for living- to pass on my genes. forget about the IVF, this one is all natural baby. although we haven't cancelled the bank account yet, it is looking like a good sign that it will be on the way out. so far we are only new in the game, but in the game nonetheless. 6 weeks into it.
how did it all go down? well about 2 weeks ago, cherry was late. we didn't give it much weight due to the fact that i am recently out of the chemo, 18 months. not long when you consider i was near death from repeated poisoning. the doctors couldn't and wouldn't give us a definitive answer about regaining my fertility, so we knew we were fighting the odds. well, to cut out middle bit, here we are. just call me daddy.
truly, it has all come as a huge shock, and totally unexpected. it is not the best time for this sort of news with house and mortgage and me returning to university. but then again, does this sort of thing ever come at an appropriate time? i have learned a few lessons from cancer and living through the chemotherapy, life is way too prescious. so we are taking this little bit of news and running. so what of the obstacles in the future whether they be financial, time, energy, or anything. we are going for it with a sense of pride and determination.
still there are the health factors to consider of mother and child and going the full term, etc. but so far so good. we have overcome so many hurdles thus far. it also means plain and simple, cherry is healthy, and i am healthy. this is my testament to life and a big fuck you to cancer. you didn't win. i won.
