The Word B

in recent news, scout continues to grow and grow and learn so much more on a day to day basis. she is difficult to get to sleep. she does not like going to sleep. the only way i can explain it is this- she is fearful she is going to miss out on some exciting event. but once she passes out, often times with much cajoling. she sleeps well, waking for the occasional feed.
as a working father, i feel i am missing out on such an important developing aspect of her life- well i am truly. it is such a terrible painful feeling to leave for work everyday. yet, when the end of the work day arrives, i race home to play with my little girl. it is amazing how before i was born, i was more motivated to finish the house renovations, but now even that energy has fallen by the wayside, from either lack of sleep or i would simply rather be hanging out with both of my girls... i am sure loving fathers all over the world would feel similar to this. it really sucks!
i did come home for a little play and a cuddle, and then i proceded to paint the railing on the back balcony. it has been screaming "paint me" for months now. so finally, it is done. all white with no more of that aweful pink under coat. why the devil australian timber yards prime their timber in the color of pink is beyond me. in the end, it just means extra work for me.
is it just me, or is anyone else sick of this anna nicole smith shit? frankly, i was over it in 1992 after she did her guess jeans modeling. it was never that good in the first place. can someone please explain the worlds fetish for this woman. the old man's perspective i can sort of understand- he had money, she was young and looking to get rich. end of story.

friday night and the feelings so-so. it is late. we are struggling through watching blood diamond on the dvd. scout keeps waking, so we are seeing it in bits. currently we are on our 3rd intermission. crazy. it is a fabulous movie. heavy shit, but really well done.
i had my teeth drilled today. two of them had cavities. one was new. the other was deeper and beneath a former filling. lucky it was not so bad that it needed a root canal. i have not had the pleasure of one of them yet... but i am sure with more age and rich food, i will be well accostumed to that. i really think that the chemotherapy fucked up my teeth. but that could be just me making an excuse. who knows?
on another note. i have the weekend ahead of me. tomorrow is a friends bucks party (or bachelor party for the north americans) in the city. i will go in for a few drinks and then head home. although the gay and lesbian mardi gras parade is going to take place in sydney tomorrow night. so depending on how drunk we get the groom to be, he could end up on a float or worse...
well. that is all i have to say. exciting times here.

so close. you thought i would never write.
well, i do. and i did. fuck i wrote a whopper about 4 days ago and the blogger disconnected me. so i had the shits and showed it, by not writing.
it is nearly dinner time. it is raining in sydney australia at the moment. too bad most of the water hits the streets and goes straight to the ocean where it is needed most. here in australia it is an election year, and the bullshit propoganda and political promises that come spewing from the political hopefuls mouths is downright pathetic. it is all lip service. the only people that don't believe that it is, are the people spouting the lies. lately, they are crapping on about water savings, drought, and the environment. all good platforms, but in 6 months time, this drought stricken country will be left high and dry, once the electees are firmly in office and the dollar signs of big business are waving under their noses.
i find it completely ironic and a pathetic joke- black fellas (aboriginals) were care takers of this land- australia for more than 40,000 years. yes, a long time. then you have white trash europeans here for just over 200 years and they have totally fucked it up!

i just put my daughter to bed. now it is my bed time. it is difficult for me to even imagine my life without such a wonderful little girl in it. i am so blessed and so in love with my little girl. wow, how life changes when you have a child...
once again, my writing must suffer due to lack of time and energy. but i am still present in my day to day life. the computer just seems to take a major back seat to the rest of lifes events.
today, i was up at 5:30 a.m. entertaining scout, then it was breakfast, then work, then home to work in the yards, then dinner, then dishes, then shower, then putting the girl down, then computer (barely), then spend a few minutes with my wife, then bed for me. good thing it is a friday. and to think, i used to be only considering going out around this time of the evening.
live i said, my life has changed.
off to the beach tomorrow for a morning swim and then home to mow the lawn. what a weekend!

we be blogging now.
now that i have switched to the "new" blogger. what ever the hell that means. i know i have been remiss lately, but i am very skeptical of everything at the moment. i am sure i will once again be numbed back into submission.

tomorrow. the beginning of my new career- as a high school teacher. no students until tuesday, but it is back to school for me. i currently have a 10 week contract teaching english at the local highschool just around the corner from our house. can hardly wait. i am quite excited and looking forward to the whole change. i have been working towards this point for just about the past two years. so it is finally coming into fruition.
i was asked if i "am ready/prepared for tomorrow?" my answer is still i don't know. i am sure the severity of it all will hit me with full force the minute the first school bell rings, but i have survived this far in my life, so i figure i can get passed this too. after all i have already been to highschool. it is just that this time i will be on the other end of the classroom dynamics. i have been there too when i was substitute teaching in california. so a little bit new, a little bit been there done that. i know i should hit the hay pretty soon and just have a decent night sleep before the big debut.
in other news, i had a fun little surf session this morning at long reef. there was a healthy size swell that crept up yesterday that mellowed out into 4-5 foot surf today. there was a big crowd of folks out in the line-up, so picking waves at first was a bit tricky until i realized (like most places) 1/2 the people out in the surf don't know what they are doing. the water has finally warmed up, the water was clean, and the sun was out.
looking forward to the three o'clock finishes and attempting to make the afternoon surfs and swims a regular habit. time will tell for sure.
scout is getting big!
i apologize for the lack of pictures on this blog site. the past few times i have blogged, i have made serious attempts to upload photos without success. so if you are interested in seeing recent photos of scout, check out the blog cherrybean. she is much better at uploading the pictures. she has much more time and access to the computer (when scout is not demanding attention). and she is way way way more computer savvy than i am. turly i am technologically inept. i am barely hanging on to the computer world and just getting by, and i lack the desire to really keep up. who knows, perhaps i will slip back into the "dark ages" and go back to the pen and paper.... don't hold your breath, though.

so i more or less have a week off from beach work before i begin the new career as a high school engrish teacher. i am so excited about the change. although i know i will miss the beach office, the prospects of a mentally stimulating environment are too good to pass up. i am hoping to have more time to spend at the beach playing, after school gets out at 3pm.
so at the beginning of the week, i had this long list of activities and major house chores to accomplish. well, the weather has set me back on achieving the whole list and has thwarted my outdoor activities for the past two days. it is raining. not that i am complaining about it, i just find it ironic in the fact that when i do plan to do something outside of the house, it rains. oh well...
i am off again to the doctors this afternoon to get my results from blood tests and CT scans from over the past few weeks. i am feeling good and healthy from within myself, so i figure that i will get passing marks. if not, i will be very cranky. i am sick and tired of dealing with cancer. i want some time off from it.
i am tempted to get into some political rantings, but i will let it go for now. suffice it to say they are all morons.
the super bowl is to be played in a few days. as fate would have it, it will be during the hours of my first day at school. so i don't think i can call in sick in order to stay home, get drunk and watch the football game. too bad. i like getting drunk before 12 noon on a monday. the game is televised live here, and due to time and location differences kick off (after the pre-game hype) usually occurs around 11:30am. but i am usually well fueled up by 10:45am and ready to get into a nitrate missile with mustard about mid way through the first quarter. oh well, chalk up another missed super bowl, since having moved over seas.
family life is great. i am loving it. everyday is such a new and fascinating adventure, i look forward to every moment i can spend with scout. she is truly a wonder.
about the photos (hoping they post- seem to have many difficulties with blogger these days). one of scout looking all her best. the other is a family portrait out the front of our house. we were on our way to a pirate party. we all got dressed up and went to the fiesta. it was a lot of fun.

total apologies all around. i have had every intention of updating my blog on a regular basis, but the whole fatherhood thing has thrown me off my schedule. i can not complain about it one bit. currently, scout is on my lap as i type. it won't last much longer, so this is just a not of recognition. i have been slack and it will improve.
life is going great. i finish my work on the beach in 10 days, and i start teaching in the classroom in 13 days. not much room in between. but really, what else would i be doing?
life has been interesting to say the least. i have had many adventures and exciting times over the past few weeks. i would have liked to shared them but there was no time, and truly there is more exciting things to share coming up in the days ahead.
we are out of here- team dad and daughter.

our neighborhood has been the scene of a few too many domestic squabbles coming from one house in particular. four doors up from our place is a very descreet house with some fucking loud bogan occupants inside. i only comment on these people as i nearly got run over yesterday while putting out the trash and recycling on the kerb, as the red little car came screeching around the corner zig-zagging it's way up the street while two girls were yelling at each other and fighting over control of the steering wheel. they then turned on two wheels round the next corner to stop in front of the same house and conitnue their argument/fight as they went inside the house.
the same persons or occupants of the house had a brawl on new years day at 5am outside of our house, where some guy literally beat the shit out of his girl friend. then two weeks ago, there were about five cop cars out the front of their place dealing with another domestic dispute. like what the fuck? apparently all the shopping carts that have turned up mysteriously around the streets, lying on the grass (there are about 4 of them) have come from the same persons. this information is hearsay from one of the other neighbors.
the poor couple that just moved into their new house next door, after paying an overly inflated price for an oversized box with little to no usable yard, must be regretting the day they spent over a million dollars to live in a neighborhood with all this craziness going on. then the old people living around here, might be doubling their medication. at the very least, it is interesting. i am curious to see what happens next.